Goodbye daddy…

My heart is so sad right now…I just received the call that my dad has passed. The memory that comes to my mind is him attempting to kiss my cheek with the little strength he had last week. His greatest desire as a sober man was to have his kids know he was sorry for all he had done. The beauty is that God is faithful, and heard my dads prayers. All of us have been able to sit by his side, see the healing God had done in his life, and return the greatest gift God has given us, FORGIVENESS. Even after all the years of bad choices, Gods love and mercy abounded still towards my dad, towards all of us. He is quick to forgive and His desire is to restore and make new. In these past three months I have experience more tears and brokenness than I have in a long time, maybe a lifetime. I have been broken to my core. It is at that depth of brokenness, we step aside and God steps in. It’s the refining process where He can purge us of all the junk we carry as people, and purifies us into something so beautiful. It’s where we can see the wrongs we’ve done and the wrongs we’ve put on others and start the process of change. I like my dad, don’t want to go back to the old person. I want to cling to God and His word and see all He can and wants to do through His pure vessel. We as believers of Jesus, have the assured hope of eternity in heaven with our Lord. It is why Jesus suffered such eminence pain on earth, paving the way for us. In heaven we will have no more tears, no more sorrow, and no more pain. My dad woke up this morning to that beauty, a restored body, a restored man and standing before God, with the greatest of joy. I’m a little jealous that my dad is dancing with my Jesus right now. Save a dance for me dad, and know I will live my life with the gratitude of God restoring our relationship those years ago. It wasn’t easy, but it birthed in you a changed life and in me, a purging of my old life. God had a wonderful plan that day I sat with you on the streets. It was so hard to see you like that; I had to trust God had His hand on you. As much as I wanted to fix everything for you, it had to be God. He did such a good work with you! I’m so proud of you! Today, I challenge you all to hold those you love so close, so near. It is that love that changes people and nothing else! May the love we have for others become the stepping stone to the change we all need. My dad would want you all to know God is so in love with you. No amount of wrong choices, failures or pains could ever stop that love from going to you. I love you all too. Thank you taking this journey with me. I’m such a private person, I’ve learned to do that to hide and keep my walls up. God has been doing a work tho, and I new those months ago, it was a challenge to me to open up to all of you. You have all been so wonderful. I am a blessed girl for those God has placed in my life. Please keep praying for me and my family. I need God to touch my heart. It needs to smile again, it needs a lot of work, but He is doing the work. William Hill (Daddy), I love you (I will share in my next post what has been going on with my family and my dads story). 

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About Sarah Rachel Hill

After graduating high school, a tragic surfing accident changed Sarah Hill's life. Suffering a broken neck and back, Sarah clung to Christ and through this painful journey, God's plan and purpose for her life started to become clear. After recovering from her accident, Sarah completed her Associate's Degree in theology from Calvary Chapel Bible College (CCBC). Trusting God, Sarah returned to surfing and became a missionary to the island of Kauai in June 2001. There, Sarah founded Kauai Child, a ministry geared toward the island's kids. Soon after arriving in Kauai, she began spending more of her time in ministry to junior and senior high students. Sarah has helped create youth groups on the North Shore of Kauai and ministers to more than 150 kids a week. Because of her fun and loving approach to youth, she has one of the largest youth groups on Kauai. Sarah takes the time to truly listen and understand the full scope of each student's needs. Her ministry also includes helping establish Christian clubs in public schools, discipling kids, counseling students and their families, and of course, her ministry to kids on the water while surfing! Grounded in her devotion and love for Christ for more than 17 years and in ministry for 12 years, Sarah's training allows her to recognize those in need and gives her the ability to reach out to them. After growing up in a tough and abusive home, through God's grace, she continues impacting lives for God's kingdom on Kauai ... and beyond. In SOUL SURFER, Sarah is portrayed by Carrie Underwood. View all posts by Sarah Rachel Hill

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